October 2021: A time for Ghosts, Ghouls, Death, Updates and…

Sorry, 2021 has been on track to be one year for the books for me. In many ways.

 

I have had little time for writing. While in most years I have had time to get writing in on most days, even enough to squeeze an hour or two on most days, I have been having enough trouble even getting mind in a state for fifteen minutes of medidtation most days which is a problem when i try to find time to write on a given day. I have to set a calendar reminder to tell myself to write otherwise I am going to forget to write in a week and that is bad for my state of mind.

The good thing about my writing slowing down means that my backlog of books has not grown as my books going out to published has gone down has gone out the door as well. However, I would have wished I could have gotten my books out to you at the expense of being able to write instead of lowing down both books coming out of my head as well as books coming out of my backlog. I would rather have nothing in the backlog and that to blame for nothing new hitting amazon than it because of my personal life…

Speaking of that.

The end of September hits and That seemed to be the perfect time for My family to start spilling the beans about my past. I won’t go into details about my past but suffice it to say, A lot of things that had been told to me throughout my troubled life have been wrong. Not about what happened to me or about my ancestors per se. But about circumstances surrounding my birth and a couple of details around that. Close people to me know more about that.

Suffice it to say. In one week, I went from being an only child to being the only surviving child of my father. my background went from being normal to being stranger than one of my characters I created. My life started to turn into a conspiracy and the adult members of my family were in on it. the surviving adult members of my family decided that now was the time to tell me. The children of my family, now my age, didnt really know about it.

It is a rare thing to have your entire world crashing down around you. We all have our own world narrative and that personal narrative seems iron clad. everything else seems flexible to an open mind as long as we have some firm ground to stand on. That firm ground being our own identity. Usually that identity, if we don’t have some strong sense of family to stand on, is our own experience and where we came from. before September I thought I knew who I was and where I came from. As of this post, I can’t be sure of that anymore. The only thing I can be sure of now is everything I have made for myself since I became of age and became independent.

They originally told me I was born Kenneth brooks, an only child, then they said most of this was a lie.

I am Kendra Brooks, A druid, A writer, A system Engineer, A Chimera. A strong and independent little sister. 

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True Story: Everyday Heroes.

Just a recent update.

As some of you well know. I am going through a separation. That makes things pretty interesting, especially when you are trying to keep good friendships with you exes alive and stay in your children’s lives.

it makes things interesting when you have a seizure disorder and a host of other health issues that has also made you disabled. Stress can affect all of the above and do interesting things to you which in turn will have an affect on your body. Some for the bad.

 

The reason why my site has been acting strange recently is due to my neglect. I had been pretty remote from my server for the past several weeks, dealing with the death of my father on top of the divorce. I went out to see my Mother and Stepmother to help grieve. While I was there, I met Lauryn online and quickly fell in love. She took me home and we have been together ever since.

This last Saturday we were getting ready to go. I was talking to her friend Jesse while she was getting ready in the garage. I turned to head up the steps to go inside. (This is an abridged version of events) I got up to the top stair and Lauryn opened the door. She was surprised to see me just like I was to see her. she said “Oh hey there!” and the next thing I basically remember (aside from interesting dream sequences and her and Jesse calling out my name, talking to each other) is waking up on a car, my head hurt, my neck hurt, and my back hurt. Lauryn was looking at me and and asking if I was okay. she told me i passed out and fell against the car. She told me I was out for 10 minutes.

I jumped up (probably a bad idea after what happened) and apologized. I walked inside on my own. I told her I loved her. i apologized for the seizure and as the pain got worse i laid down. she called 911 and the EMTs checked me out. I went to the hospital after the EMT’s cleared me as Lauryn wanted me to and surprisingly i only escaped with bruised muscles and a mild concussion.

What had happened when Lauryn and I saw each other at the door way was I had a seizure and fell. I fell off the top step, backward and onto a car. Surprising I did not dent the car. Once I hit the car, Lauryn caught me and called out to Jesse to hold us to keep me from sliding onto the floor and fridge. They kept me stable for the 10 minutes it took for them to call out and revive me. Since I don’t remember anything about the fall and being caught or held by Jesse and Lauryn,

Lauryn is my Hero and the love of my life. Jesse is also my hero. I don’t know where I would be without them.

 

Do you have any everyday heroes that you want to give a shoutout to? leave a name or story in the comments below.

Templar: Darkness is scheduled for release on 3/1/2021!

Templar: Darkness, the latest in the Shaman Songs trilogy is set for release on 3/1/2021!

Below is the link to the Amazon e-book pre order.

Let me know in the comments what you think or email me at kendrabrooks@taintedtrinity.com

 

July Updates, The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly.

It is late at night when I started writing this. I imagine that most of you were watching fireworks at this time. I am huddled in my basement with my stereo on full blast listening to music from my doc and writing my novel at this point. I have complex PTSD and the boom and cracks of the fireworks reminds me of a traumatic event. I have to avoid shutting down so here I am.

To say it has been a month is a bit of an understatement. My wife is still in a recovery hospital from her knee surgery and we are not sure if she will be released in a week or towards the end of the month. Her father suffered a heart attack a couple weeks ago. He is doing okay but he needs to take it easy.

Despite the above, there has been some improvements in life. I did enjoy my private day with my wife today. we were able to nap next to each other for the first time in over a month. it was a nice reminder of something we took for granted for 15 years and stirred up fond memories of when we dated (trying to sleep on a twin bed and holding on for dear life). It was a much needed emotional recharge on my part.

I cannot wait to see if my town will have a Pride Fest. I know that it is a little late since pride month has already past but since I was unable to catch a ride to Denver Pride, it would be nice to get to go to a Pride Fest of some form.

I hope to have Templar: Black done soon. I might be able to have a delay long enough to edit and hopefully publish Templar: Resonance. I will update when I am finished with Templar: Black with further details. Depending on when I get that finished, I will also jump into Templar: Obsidian (Jena’s half of Black September) or I might have a free ebook series of chapters to start posting on the site. In either case, I will update further if I can get that done.